you know, its really not fair. its really not fair that my dad had to leave us so early in his life. ive complained about this over and over again. but is not fair. i hate going day by day not being around him. it sucks that he cant meet my future with me, that he wasnt at my brothers wedding. its not fair he wont be at mine to walk me down the aisle. i fucking hate that everyone has a father around them, and i dont. i hate being alone because i never want to think about it, i hate thinking about it actually. it pissed me off and makes me think horrible, horrible thoughts. its just not fair. thats all i can say. it pisses me off and i hate thinking about all of this. i hate being alone.